Wednesday, September 30, 2009

life is good today.

Today was a really good day.

It's kind of a big deal.

I have no idea why, but for the first time in a long time, I feel like myself. My head is clear, I can breathe. Nothing hurts. I smile for no reason, I laugh because I can. Instead of walking across the room, I choose to dance. I'm alone without feeling lonely. I feel comfort, safety, peace. I feel hopeful and worry-free. I am surrounded by light. My complexion is brighter. Life has returned to my eyes-I can feel it. My heart is full, my shoulders; empty. The weight has been lifted, and there is a sense of freedom in my soul like I haven't felt in ages.

-V. O'Neel
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Author's Note: I finished writing this [very short] entry, and I was disappointed to realize I was already thinking; so how long until something ruins it... Bad! I immediately dismissed this thought as rubbish. I have decided that this is going to be my new normal. No reason for me to continue to live my life bogged down by my past and all of its burdens.

Songs:
"Love Today" Mika
"La la la" LMFAO (can you believe they named their band that?)
"Feeling Good" Muse
"Something's Coming" Westside Story [love]

6 comments:

Tara said...

Good for you girl! Just remember that we all have a choice as to how to deal with our circumstances. You have the choice to let something ruin this great attitude or not, so don't! :)

PS: I am loving this song that you have playing right now (Love Today.) I'm like jamming in front of my laptop. Haha

Tim Stiffler-Dean said...

Sometimes we just have to wake up and force ourselves to be happy. After a while of doing that it becomes habit - and a pretty fantastic one at that!

Glad you're feeling so great today. Keep it up!

Vanessa said...

Thanks for the encouragement, guys! & Miss Tara, I don't see how you could NOT jam out to that song! I <3 Mika =)

OmegaRadium said...

It's always great to see..er..I mean read about such a great and positive attitude! Kudos!

Lance Lash said...

Wooo thats the spirit darlin. Something I've learned is your attitude can even have an effect on what happens to you. You think, today will be a bad day adn chances are bad things will happen. So stay positive and your days will stay brighter. Good to see others who dance across the floor. Its a rare thing nowadays indeed.

Oh and i got a HUGE smile when i heard Mika start playing. You CAN'T be sad while listening to him.

<3

Wonderful said...

Yay! I love it when that happens! I cooked last night for the first time in months, and I actually felt more like myself than I have in awhile. It was great!

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